Okay, sure. If you’ve got a line of teachers waiting to take our spots and we should just “see what happens” if we leave, maybe I should peace out from my school. Fuck you, you Napoleon-complexed, dickish little man.
We have a moth infestation and it’s Sunday night at 6pm and I have 5 more pages to add to my shitty paper and we have to throw out literally all of our food and clean everything and I have to be at school in 12 hours and why must you be such an asshole, Universe?
Sleep in a bit. Up. Internets and tea. Girlfriend is making choc. chip waffles yum. To do today: group posters, small group plans, paper #2. Clean things. Shower at some point. Chill evening catching up on shows. Early to bed.
If not shown appreciation, it gets to you.
Good god I just want it to be FALL.
Up too early. HIMYM and tea. Quick clean. To a fair type thing. Time with the girlfriend. Home. Relaxing evening with lots of netflix-catching up.
Up early—exhausted and coughing. Full day with the kids. Try to be nothing but positive, start out the day with a check-in convo with my 3 struggling kids, start math centers. Quick meeting with mentor. Home asap. Begin work on paper (only decide topic and complete the table). Relax with the girlfriend. Bedtime early.
I don’t want to be awake, I don’t want to go to school, I don’t want to have to teach today, I don’t want to do my homework, I don’t want to go to class, I don’t want to do ANYTHING.
10 Tips for Understanding someone with PTSD:
#1 – Knowledge is power. Understanding the process of a triggering event, the psychic reaction to trauma, the warning signs and symptoms of PTSD, and available treatment options for PTSD allows you to help recognize, support and guide your PTSD loved one toward diagnosis, treatment and healing.
We need you to be clearheaded, pulled together and informed.
#2 – Trauma changes us. After trauma we want to believe —as do you—that life can return to the way it was; that we can continue as who we were. This is not how it works. Trauma leaves a huge and indelible impact on the soul. It is not possible to endure trauma and not experience a psychic shift.
Expect us to be changed. Accept our need to evolve. Support us on this journey.
#3 – PTSD hijacks our identity. One of the largest problems with PTSD is that it takes over our entire view of ourselves. We no longer see clearly. We no longer see the world as we experienced it before trauma. Now every moment is dangerous, unpredictable and threatening.
Gently remind us and offer opportunities to engage in an identity outside of trauma and PTSD.
#4 – We are no longer grounded in our true selves. In light of trauma our real selves retreat and a coping self emerges to keep us safe.
Believe in us; our true selves still exist, even if they are momentarily buried.
#5 – We cannot help how we behave. Since we are operating on a sort of autopilot we are not always in control. PTSD is an exaggerated state of survival mode. We experience emotions that frighten and overwhelm us. We act out accordingly in defense of those feelings we cannot control.
Be patient with us; we often cannot stop the anger, tears or other disruptive behaviors that are so difficult for you to endure.
#6 – We cannot be logical. Since our perspective is driven by fear we don’t always think straight, nor do we always accept the advice of those who do.
Keep reaching out, even when your words don’t seem to reach us. You never know when we will think of something you said and it will comfort, guide, soothe or inspire us.
#7 – We cannot just ‘get over it’. From the outside it’s easy to imagine a certain amount of time passes and memories fade and trauma gets relegated to the history of a life. Unfortunately, with PTSD nothing fades. Our bodies will not let us forget. Because of surging chemicals that reinforce every memory, we cannot walk away from the past anymore than you can walk away from us.
Honor our struggle to make peace with events. Do not rush us. Trying to speed our recovery will only make us cling to it more.
#8 – We’re not in denial—we’re coping! It takes a tremendous effort to live with PTSD. Even if we don’t admit it, we know there’s something wrong. When you approach us and we deny there’s a problem that’s really code for, “I’m doing the best I can.” Taking the actions you suggest would require too much energy, dividing focus from what is holding us together. Sometimes, simply getting up and continuing our daily routine is the biggest step toward recovery we make.
Alleviate our stress by giving us a safe space in which we can find support.
#9 – We do not hate you. Contrary to the ways we might behave when you intervene, somewhere inside we do know that you are not the source of the problem. Unfortunately, in the moment we may use your face as PTSD’s image. Since we cannot directly address our PTSD issues sometimes it’s easier to address you.
Continue to approach us. We need you to!
#10 - Your presence matters. PTSD creates a great sense of isolation. In our post-traumatic state, it makes a difference to know that there are people who will stand by us. It matters that although we lash out, don’t respond and are not ourselves, you are still there, no matter what.
Don’t give up, we’re doing our best.
There is not enough time to do all the things that must be done. Ever. I am always playing catchup.
This weekend’s to do:
- Today, be social with the girlfriend and others—brewery and lunch? Idk.
- Figure out a whole new math curriculum and be ready to implement on Monday. Play with renrek until I understand how to teach with it. Review investigation/set up for 10-day lesson.
- Gather and set up math centers.
- Plans for intervention group—research ELL things. - Small group reading plans.
- Go into school on Sunday—look for computer mice, check on working computers. Do other things.
- Set up phonics center stuff.
- Go buy headphones, containers.
- Readings for class.
- Module for class.
- Figure out TEAM steps for this year. Send email to mentor.
- Spend quality time with the girlfriend.
- Invent something comparable to the wheel and fire.
- Figure out time travel.
- Solve world peace.
- I can’t.
by kam wei
Good god what a day. The kids sucked, I have to finish my paper, open house is tomorrow, I have a million things to do, a handful of parents to call, things to grade, and centers to finalize. The fuck did I decide to do this for?
I am stressed out because I have to finish my first paper for grad school by Tuesday and I’ve only started now [thanks, procrastination and getting sick] and one of my bunnies seems to be sick.
I’m worried because she’s not eating and we’re taking her to the vet and the girlfriend is anxious and I can’t just fix it.
Another species to be added to the ever-growing tick-list:
Africa’s Western Black Rhino has been officially declared EXTINCT. Poaching and lack of conservation have led the subspecies of black rhino to extermination, while the Northern White Rhino is ‘teetering on the brink of extinction’.
Way to go, humanity.
what’s sad is hardly anyone fucking cares or wants to hear about it let alone talk about it
This breaks my heart.
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